kung ayaw, 'wag pilitin

Hm. Yesterday I thought of how I and the people around me have matured since I entered college four years ago. If I were back in that period, I would have begged for reconciliation, blackmailed and extorted a bit, just to get what I want.

These days, I love myself more. Sure, I miss him, but I know I shouldn't do anything about it. I know things will turn out better, eventually, with or without him.

And, more importantly (although I'm pretty sure the people I'm referring to won't be able to read this post), I love the select people who listened to me, and those who told me off from doing/thinking stupid things around two weeks ago. I love you guys.

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Relapse.

I hate this lonely feeling. :'c

election, registration

I used to put off registering for the elections because of Ace's story, where he waited three days to complete his registration. So the registration period was extended, and it took me all of ONE HOUR to finish it.

I can now say the Dasmariñas COMELEC is efficient.

over the edge

We come to our own center of the world
Where all faces fade into darkness.
All I see is you
No longer there

No one can erase the past
As witnessed by the stars,
But the world can never wait
For anyone to start over.

(Over The Edge - Dicta License)

Breakups are never easy. You start questioning yourself and reality. You don't really know if you did anything wrong, And you don't know if it's really okay to trust him when he says he's not cheating on you. (I do, by the way. Either way, there's really nothing I can do if he is.)

It wasn't my intention to tell all my blockmates about it, but sure enough, they noticed how swollen and red my eyes were the next morning. So that's how they found out.

I don't know when I will finally be able forget everything, but I'm happy because I think I'm handling it quite well.

No, I'm still not over him and I DO still love him. After all, he made me really happy. BUT I can never force anything upon anyone, especially feelings. And I can't really be happy in a one-way relationship. (Remember? It always takes two to tango.)

When will I get over this? Only time will tell. Meanwhile, I will continue to do the things I do, sans him, and hopefully avoid getting all emotional remembering things associated to him.