kung ayaw, 'wag pilitin

Hm. Yesterday I thought of how I and the people around me have matured since I entered college four years ago. If I were back in that period, I would have begged for reconciliation, blackmailed and extorted a bit, just to get what I want.

These days, I love myself more. Sure, I miss him, but I know I shouldn't do anything about it. I know things will turn out better, eventually, with or without him.

And, more importantly (although I'm pretty sure the people I'm referring to won't be able to read this post), I love the select people who listened to me, and those who told me off from doing/thinking stupid things around two weeks ago. I love you guys.

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Relapse.

I hate this lonely feeling. :'c

election, registration

I used to put off registering for the elections because of Ace's story, where he waited three days to complete his registration. So the registration period was extended, and it took me all of ONE HOUR to finish it.

I can now say the Dasmariñas COMELEC is efficient.

over the edge

We come to our own center of the world
Where all faces fade into darkness.
All I see is you
No longer there

No one can erase the past
As witnessed by the stars,
But the world can never wait
For anyone to start over.

(Over The Edge - Dicta License)

Breakups are never easy. You start questioning yourself and reality. You don't really know if you did anything wrong, And you don't know if it's really okay to trust him when he says he's not cheating on you. (I do, by the way. Either way, there's really nothing I can do if he is.)

It wasn't my intention to tell all my blockmates about it, but sure enough, they noticed how swollen and red my eyes were the next morning. So that's how they found out.

I don't know when I will finally be able forget everything, but I'm happy because I think I'm handling it quite well.

No, I'm still not over him and I DO still love him. After all, he made me really happy. BUT I can never force anything upon anyone, especially feelings. And I can't really be happy in a one-way relationship. (Remember? It always takes two to tango.)

When will I get over this? Only time will tell. Meanwhile, I will continue to do the things I do, sans him, and hopefully avoid getting all emotional remembering things associated to him.

90210 season 1

Yay! I finally have 90210 season 1.:) I was willing to download it but luckily, I found a copy near SM Dasma. Here's the summary written at the back of the "case":

Annie and Dixon are transferred to Beverly Hills High School, Anne knows a school was once the lover Ethan (Ethan) had a severely mine. When Annie would like to sit on board the Ethan of the time greeting, but suddenly found his legs under a woman is "busy" with... ... When Anne learned that Ethan and her understanding of school after the first friend Naomi (Naomi) is the relationship between lovers, makes no reference to Anne before the Select to see.
Dixon would like to join the hockey team, but opponents of George (George) Dixon jealous superior skills, they deliberately crash Dixon, the two played together then. Ethan in order to protect themselves, the principal did not tell George Dixon to the facts of provocation, Dixon very angry, they send text messages to tell Ethan on a clandestine love affair of Naomi.

Crazy, huh?

fight, fight, fight!

So after everything I learned in Microbiology class, I've grown to cheering on my immune system whenever I have infections (examples: ingrown, pimple, singaw). Of course the cheer I'm talking about doesn't involve shouting and dancing around with pompoms. Otherwise people would think I'm losing my mind. (Or am I?)

I do not utter the words out loud, by the way, I just play them in my mind, over and over, everytime I remember I have an open wound/infection. (Especially that time when Ondoy struck and I was forced to walk through the flood just to get home! Luckily, I didn't have a wound then. But Leptospira interogans can be quite virulent even if there's no wound.)

Nothing's wrong with encouraging your cells right? Especially when they're in combat mode 24/7. Haha. :)) Everything is totally justifiable.:D


[Written Nov. 3 midnight - I WAS SO BORED.]

characters, 90210

I like Naomi. When I relate this to my friends they all say, "Eh ang arte nun ha!". Then I defend her saying she's beautiful and a real good person deep inside.

Pero I can't blame them if they hate/don't like her the way I do. They probably saw all the bitchy stuff she put Annie through (in the first season), the crappy way she treats people who aren't popular, etc etc. Who wouldn't hate her?

Maybe the saying "First impression lasts" is true. I only saw one episode of season 1 and I've been watching the second season like a crazed 90210 fan. In that one episode of season 1, I saw her feeling broken with no family, and sure enough, I felt sad for her. And in the second season, she thought she was betrayed by Annie - so she did revenge on Annie (sort of like Blair sans Deroda). Everything she does is totally justifiable (if you ask me. xp).

And, this one time I was watching E!, they showed this picture of her without make-up on and she was so beautiful! That article actually led me to this product endorsed by her (Annalyn McCord) manufactured by Sanofi-Aventis, which is sold only in the USA.

Anyway, in conclusions, I hope she and Liam make up already!!:)) And, I hope 90210 doesn't end up like OTH boredom.

wallet

My cards (membership, loyalty, discount, CCs, IDs) are piling up and I am beginning to feel the need to use a wallet. Now I just have to find the perfect one (perfect, for me).

Reasons why I don't use a wallet:

• I used to have one, until it got stolen along with all the cards and money I carried that day.
• Application for replacement cards is really tedious.
• I misplace stuff easily.
• So my cards and money are not concentrated in one place, therefore, it would not be such a loss if one of them gets stolen, or lost.
• I'm quite OC searching for the right wallet.
  

beerless beerthday. xp

Finally, I find time to blog, or, more appropriately, something sensible to blog about. Today's my nineteenth year on Earth! Yay! :) Though Glenn says it makes my crime of going out with an underage worse. x.x Hahaha, well, one year doesn't really count. xp

Anyway, here's a rundown of the things I am really thankful for:

• My parents, of course, because they, as I can see, do everything they can to give me and my siblings what we need and want. They mean the world to me.
• My friends both in college and in highschool. People to whom I can expose my real baduy, corny, gloomy, happy, lazy, gc self. I wouldn't trade them for anything else. :)
• My being a 'regular' third year student. (Though sometimes I wish to be otherwise because of all the stress. xp) But being in CP gives you a constant level of uncertainty... :c
• My "talents", and the opportunity to practice and to show them to the world. xp
• Him, for making everyday a special day, and for making my heart skip a beat when I least expect it. ^^,

There. My first birthday where I didn't desperately want anything earthly. Haha. Guess being past 18 gives one a bit of maturity. Anyway, I'm happy enough and I hope this lasts for a long time. That's all for now. [Leona Lewis' Run and Marie Digby's Say It Again are playing through my head like pirated CDs. Hahaha. :) ]

something

I've been wanting to blog about "something" but every time I go to the "create new post" page on blogger my mind goes blank. Perhaps it just goes to remind me that that something isn't in my mind but in my heart. I sound mushy don't I? Hahahahahahaha