band nostalgia

I love playing music.

I just wished music loved playing me too.

I'd like to play music everytime my schedule allows it. Not the kind of play where you press to play but the kind of play where you actually produce music. As Bamboo says "the music plays the band, the songs play the music".

I'm frustrated. I understand the theory and I've been thought a hundred times by my teacher, but I still can't play modern piano properly. Somehow classical music seems easier though it's actually harder. I can't even express how much my inability makes me feel unworthy. =(