I just read Ellein's blog. It said something about her reading past emails with an old 'friend' and realizing how pathetic she was. See, she always apologized and felt miserable for the smallest things, as she puts it, she acted like "a slave apologizing to her master for eating too much." I love you Ellein, now I feel miserable for being oblivious and tolerant to all the mistakes I let you make during the course of that 'friendship'. Please forgive me. I, too, didn't know better then.
She reminded me of myself, and my 'friend'. Thinking of that relationship two and a half years ago still embarrasses me. The words I said after that made the reconciliation of our former friendship almost impossible. About a year and a half a go we tried to discuss the issues, both of us ended in tears we still weren't able to bring the nice back on. I still haven't felt the consequences of losing that friendship, but I know it will show sometime in the future.
But every 15-year-old is allowed a bit of immaturity at foolishness, right? No? As of now I still haven't figured out if that's the rational way of putting it or if that's just my way of tarping a sad story. Either way it convinced me never to walk that same trail again.
At the least, mistakes and experiences seldom fail to make an impression(trauma!) on a person.
Sometimes I wonder if everyone else has as much problems as I do, no, not the light problems I would freely discuss with anyone but the serious problems I would never dare tell anyone. Save a happy face for tomorrow.
She reminded me of myself, and my 'friend'. Thinking of that relationship two and a half years ago still embarrasses me. The words I said after that made the reconciliation of our former friendship almost impossible. About a year and a half a go we tried to discuss the issues, both of us ended in tears we still weren't able to bring the nice back on. I still haven't felt the consequences of losing that friendship, but I know it will show sometime in the future.
But every 15-year-old is allowed a bit of immaturity at foolishness, right? No? As of now I still haven't figured out if that's the rational way of putting it or if that's just my way of tarping a sad story. Either way it convinced me never to walk that same trail again.
At the least, mistakes and experiences seldom fail to make an impression(trauma!) on a person.
Sometimes I wonder if everyone else has as much problems as I do, no, not the light problems I would freely discuss with anyone but the serious problems I would never dare tell anyone. Save a happy face for tomorrow.
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