civic

my present dream car....



napapalingon na lang ako eh.

news: kamuka pala siya ni chito miranda, ung younger friend ko sa highschool dati, ngayon ko lang napansin. haha! :D

seventeen

"Now that I am in college, I realize that it is a such nice feeling to go back and reminisce the wonderful life I had.

Life had been, still is and will be wonderful for me, I know.

I am young, optimistic, and full of life.

I am positive and true.

Above all, I am responsible for the choices I make.

My life's purpose is to experience love, happiness, contentment and serenity. And my mission is to create a meaningful relationship with myself, my family, and with the people -- who, in one way or another -- have touched my life.

I cannot agree less with Pablo Picasso when he said that "everything that you can imagine is real."
I affirm that my dreams are coming true.. and it's happening NOW."

- Johnnel Tepora
(my personal academic inspiration)

today i turn seventeen. yehey!!! :D



thanks to God, mom and dad. without them i'd be nonexistent.

nakakaluha

hindi ako humingi ng permiso, pero eto, link ng kaibigan/blockmate ko. click na lang ung nasa baba. (ung unang post - February 13, 2007 post)



nakakaluha. isa yan sa mga pagkakataon na mapapaisip tayo. kung ga'no tayo ka-swerte, kung ga'no kababaw ng mga pansarili nating mga problema kumpara sa iba at kung ga'no natin napabayaan ang mga dapat natin intindihin.

nga pala, i replaced the ripway music in this blog with a livelier one.

osige na, dapat nag-aaral na 'ko ngayon eh.

12-17

nakakainis. kung kelan naman linggo ng UP fair, naging toxic pa ang buhay akademiko ko. >=[ . hindi na nga ko makakapunta sa FairSt Night (dahil ang tapos ng Math100 exam sa mon ay 7.30), malabo pa na makapunta ko sa mga araw na susunod. ang malas naman. Sayang ang backstage access!

wala kasing mangyayari sayo dun kung hindi ka nagpaka-nerd. Philo 1 exam - monday, Math 100 exam - mon, Comm 2 requirements - tues, ip lab 121 reporting - wed, chem 14.1 exam - wed, ip 121 lab exam - sat (up until 7.30pm. mga sadista sila eh.). sinulat ko lang, baka sakaling may ma-cancel pag sinulat ko, tulad ng pagpplano, hindi natutuloy pag planado. hehe.

kawawa naman kami ng mga blockmates ko na (backstage) concert people. pero hindi groupies. nga pala, nagsawa na ko kay pochoy (dicta license vocalist). hehehe... tama pala ung horoscope ko sa Inquirer Libre nung friday. Natatabangan ka na sa kanya. hahah!!! sakto!

nawawala pa retainers ko sa taas. hindi ko na nadampot nung nagsipilyo ko bago ako umalis papuntang Manila nung isang sunday. nakita ng nanay ko sa sipilyuhan, nilagay niya sa tupperware, pagka-uwi ko nung weekend hindi na namin mahanap ung tupperware. sana magpakita na siya...

hm... at least i still have something(s) to look forward to. going to team manila with my girl blockmates and my birthday!!

[may tanong ako. ako lang ba ang naeexcite pag malapit na ang sariling birthday o lahat ng tao ganun?]

[un]affected

i still can't believe how i went ballistic almost one year ago, when i had a falling out (a quarrel or estrangement between persons formerly in close association with one another) with someone i used to trust. now that i re-examine past events, i realise how exaggerated my emotions were then (not to mention how inappropriately i acted on the situation).

notice how this is the first time i wrote about 'it'. closure. it's all about closure. (linya ni Mandy, The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy.

bottom line is the experience made me a lot stronger and wiser, and i wouldn't change that for anything in the world. not even for a chance to retain the strong bond of friendship i lost.

let me share with you excepts from an article from one of my favorite websites. (syempre, peyups din ako eh. hehe... :D) uh, the article somehow reflects the way i felt. FELT. past tense (i saved the article about one year ago).

Love Stories : Losing Faith
Contributed by garnet_fire (Edited by mananalaysay)
Monday, January 24, 2005 @ 12:01:15 AM

"It's over. Finally, I can breathe. I can have a life again, something apart from always trying to be there for you. I can stop trying to understand, trying to make you see that we can work through this, that our love is worth fighting for. All the uncertainty, all the confusion, all the pain of not knowing where I went wrong, is finally over.

"D*mn you for putting me through all that. D*mn you for taking my belief in love, my belief in forever, my belief in you, and handing them back to me broken, saying you can’t deal with them anymore. You will never know how much you hurt me by just giving up, you will never know how much you scared me from loving as much as I loved you ever again.

"I did not deserve to be hurt that way. And you didn’t deserve my trust.

"So much wasted emotion. I had so much more tenderness to give, I could have stayed with you longer, but you didn’t think it would be worth our while. I know you still love me, as I know that you were too d*mned scared to be vulnerable. And I was stupid enough to hope I can help you conquer that fear, or live with it, so that you can take the risk of letting me into your heart. Not anymore. You would rather hurt me than let down your guard.

"But the worst thing about all this is the simple, stupid, pathetic truth that I miss you. I miss you. I knew losing you would be painful, but pain, I can deal with. I can cope with the sharp, intense rush of emotion that cuts like a knife, but is relieved somehow by tears and is dulled by the passage of time. What I didn’t expect was the sadness – the steady, lingering hurt that comes with the realization that you will never again look at me as if I’m precious, special, and infinitely cherished, you will never again call me “garnet ko” with the tender amazement that I really am yours. I miss you.

"Some goodbyes are final. I have a feeling this one is."

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from http://peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=3898

alumni homecoming

ayos, di ba? wala pang isang taong mula noong magtapos kami ng hayskul may homecoming na agad. hahahahaha.. pero mas masaya sana kung mas dinumog ung event. at kung bawat banda ng mga batch na grumadweyt ang tumugtog. andoon naman sila. ewan kung ba't hindi tumugtog. eh nakakamiss din yun.

pero mas namiss ko 'tong mga to:
(kita nyo naman.. konti lang kami.. ung mga iba kasi'y kung saan sumuot kaya hindi nakuhanan ng picture, bute pa si ren, sumingit na lang. sya rin kasi ung pumipindot ng digicam. hehehe!!)

weeeee.... :D anyway, un, Jan. 27, '07, 6pm - 10pm, RCHS gymn.